Trouble Focusing

This week I find myself having difficulty focusing on anything. I have had several attempts at reading, working, crafting, and exercising all to quit after a few seconds. I just can’t seem to settle down long enough to get into the flow of anything. I find myself doing everything and doing nothing at the same time.

Yesterday, I hit rock bottom! I was crabby with everyone. Being crabby while sheltered in place is not good. My work with a coach helped me acknowledge and name what was going on. So I grabbed my headphones and my notebook and hunkered down in a quiet spot in my house. I took a couple of deep breaths, popped in my headphones and cranked up Beyonce’-Bigger.

These are my favorite parts of the song..

Step out of your estimate

Step in your essence and know that you’r excellent

Rise (rise), the spirit is teachin’

Oh, I’m not just preachin’, I’m taking my own advise

Let love be the water

I pour into you and you pour into me

There ain’t no drought here

Bloom into our actual powers

I’ll be your sanctuary, you just don’t know it yet

You just don’t know it yet

No matter how hard it gets

These lines gave me life. Listening to the song on repeat helped me settle into myself, listen to myself. Being honest with myself about myself is scary and empowering. I am a part of something BIGGER!